Misanthrope and socially awkward

I'm more annoying than some people and less annoying than most.

You will never see me cheer for anything. This is especially true if you're blind. In which case, how are you even reading this?

i’m really good at bringing down expectations.

and then not delivering on those either.

1:27 AM ndruuz: Ma nem tok menni. Es most harom napot duplazok sorban.
1:28 AM Ne felejtsd h holnap anyak napja. Adj neki vmi lofaszt

Reggel, munkába menet láttam egy plakátot, amiről megtudhattam, hogy a Media Markt új reklámarca Sóher Sanyi, aki “Ott spórol, ahol tud.”

Ugyanezen a plakáton Sanyi egy 9990 Ft-os epilátor mellett áll. Ezt nagyon viccesnek találtam.

Később, hazafelé, megint eszembejutott ez a plakát, de nem jutott eszembe a reklámfigura neve. Marci rémlett. Milyen Marci?
Kis próbálgatás után a következőre jutottam:

Monetárisan meggondolt Marcell. — a szofisztikáltabb közönség számára.

life is a practical joke

haha

(via upsimba)

I think I was always influenced very easily by other people and ideas and I don’t feel like they worked out very well so far. 

Basically what is happening is that I avoid facing reality for long periods of time and so it just gathers behind me until it gets so big that this massive thing penetrates my line of vision, its shadow covering everything in a dark veil, its weight crushing down on my back, but it’s not actually an exterior thing, it’s inside me, eating at me.

And then comes a radically shorter period of facing this thing, of casting off delusions of normalcy, that general state of perceiving everything to be all right; this delusion of the unimaginative. This is when I have to think of myself as part of this mass of human beings, this single large entity we call society and how or where I fit into all this and what have I done with my life and what am I doing now and do I have plans and how do I make plans and what am I trying to accomplish and do I even matter, but of course I don’t, so wait, wasn’t I supposed to face something here?

And then I had a lot of other notions, such as whether I was in danger of falling in love to oblige. Why? Because love was so rare that if one had it the other should capitulate to it?
Saul Bellow: The Adventures of Augie March
There were some people who were too slow in their life, because of fatigue, unwillingness, hardship, sorrow, mistrust; and some were too fast out of other trouble or desperation.
Saul Bellow: The Adventures of Augie March
I was never before so taken up with a single human being. I followed her sense wherever it went. As I wasn’t yet old enough to be tired of confinement to my own sense, I didn’t appreciate this enough.
Saul Bellow: The Adventures of Augie March

There is no one I trust enough to stand on the edge of a very high building with them behind me.

It’s not that I think anyone would want to push me, but if they did I’d have no way to stop them.

(via gq)

The brave and the overconfident leave, and what do I do?

I stare out the rear window of the bus, pretending that I’m leaving everything behind. 

amikor a BBC-ről már nem a British Broadcasting Channel jut elsőként az eszedbe, hanem a “big black cock,” akkor valószínűleg túl sok pornót nézel.

sigh

sigh

- Ültél már lovon?
- Nem, mindig csak átesek a másik oldalára.